I remember...

I remember you keeping me warm,
I remember you keeping me from harm,
I remember you calling me "TuTu" everyday,
I remember you making my closet Ghost go away,
I remember you swimming with me as a kid,
I remember you loving me no matter what I did,
I remember when you drove the bus, I rode by your side,
I remember the sound if your belt, as it struck my backside,
I remember you making food that I didn't even like,
I remember you teaching me how to ride a bike,
I remember you leaving me a lot with my Mother,
I remember outside, teaching basketball to my Brother,
I remember you sleeping with me on nights I was haunted,
I remember you working so much so Cliff and I never wanted,
I remember you teaching us to work, that's what men do,
I remember how much I wanted to be so much like you,
I remember that day that you went to the store,
I remember so many days went by, unlike before,
I remember Mother crying so many tears,
I remember Her screams and how they hurt my ears,
I remember I was so confused I didn't know how to act,
I remember Mother telling us, He's not coming back,
I remember cyring and wondering if my Daddy is dead,
I remember, "He found someone else!", was all she said,
I remember wishing I could have kept you from walking out the door,
I remember thinking you hated me, and didn't want me anymore,
I remember hating you, this was supposed to be forever,
I remember vowing, to speak to you never...
- Time heals all wounds.... 19 years later...
I love you Dad, we speak, but things aren't the same,
I still feel my heart drop, when you call out my name,
Mom, is fine, she moved on with her life without you,
Sometimes I still wonder, does she still care about you,
Now, I don't want to be anything like you,
Vowing never to put my kids what you put me through,
I still respect you, God's Word says I must,
But know this, you will never ever earn my trust,
Time doesn't heal all wounds, it simply numbs the pain,
The scar, ever present, you will never hurt me again...
I remember, but I don't want to...